These past few days have been really hectic. I had an appointment with a hematologist/oncologist a few weeks ago and was told I needed a bone marrow biopsy to rule out mast cell issues.
This procedure terrifies me, I don't know what to expect other than pain.
It also doesn't help that I feel the need to watch and research procedures before I get them. I am interested in medicine, and feel the need to know what's going on and how it all works. It fascinates me, but also puts a damper on my willingness to get a procedure done. Why would I want to get a bone marrow biopsy when I know that it involves sticking a needle into my hip and pulling marrow out? Why would I be looking forward to this knowing it is ridiculously painful?
This also comes during one of the most inopportune times of the year. As I finish with the semester, I have numerous projects and finals due. I have to study relentlessly to ensure I get a good grade, all while knowing in the back of my mind what's coming. I'm stressed about my grades, and stressed about the biopsy. These past few weeks have been nothing but a big ball of stress. Can I say stress one more time? STRESS!
While this can offer little explanation as to why I have been not posting the past few weeks, I ensure that as soon as this period is over I will return to posting regularly. I even have pictures taken and ready to post while I'm in recovery! As my readers I feel a duty to let you know what's going on in my life, especially seeing how it's so closely related to the topic at hand, allergies.
Allergies can frustrate you, and threaten to take your life but I've learned through this whole process to always remain hopeful. Never let your illnesses define who you are as a person. I am a bright college student with a great future ahead of me, I am a loving daughter and sister to my family, I am a member of the Downtown Bangor community, and I am a friend who nearly all who know me. Keeping these labels in my mind have helped when I feel like giving up and letting it all go to hell. I need to be the best person I can be, and that means being healthy and finding out what in the heck is wrong with my body. Never stop fighting to feel well, never stop telling yourself that you are worth it, and never give up on your body.
Thank you for reading, I'll talk to you all soon.
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